life happens when you least expect it

I sometimes wonder why the things you never think are possible, unravel right in front of your face. Sometimes, slowly, other times, quickly, but never expectantly. At those moments, when you have absolutely no control, the best solution is to look to God. I consider giving my problems to the Lord as one of the most difficult tasks in my life. Being that I am a worrier & a stress-aholic, I feel the need to take on all situations single handed with no one else's help. I hate to admit that I strive to be a perfectionist & that I'd rather do all the work myself & have it to my suiting, rather than relaxing & letting someone else partake. I can't explain why I am the way I am, but it, more often than not, bites me in the behind. Not having control over a situation & not understanding are absolute fears. I sometimes find myself wishing that I didn't care at all or that I could be so laid back to even notice flaws. But considering that I am nowhere near able to release myself from these habits, I have to do all that I can to try & give it to God. My problems & the events that affect me emotionally are too big for me as an individual to take on by myself. I don't know if I will ever understand or if I will ever be able to just accept other people's choices, but until then, I'll depend on Him to see me through.

Whit